Certainly Uncertain

 My future? What a small question but a huge reflection. I'm studying Visual Arts so as expecting everybody I should take something retaled. It's funny because I don't see me as an artist or working in something about art. I've always liked to be a singer, but I don't have a voice. I'd love to be a languaje teacher, I LOVE to learn new languages, I'm into korean, japanese and italian right now, I don't take formal classes (too costly) so I learn from Youtube and online books, all autodidact, I learned english the same way, translating songs, watching movies and tv shows in english, searching in translators and dicitionaries, taking Youtube classes, most of all, listening and talking to myself in the language I want to learn. I also love spanish, always
searching random and odd words, always reading something (a book, a magazine, an article, a paper, etc) so I think teaching spanish in some country in the world would be very nice.

My inner dream it's to travel a lot and live outside Chile, teaching spanish could be an option for that, being an artist too (maybe that's why, unconsciously, took art as a major). I can daydream about register my work, photos, drawings, blogs, videos, experiencies and make money from that, possibly delusional but totally possible. Whatever job I'll have, It has to be flexible and abroad, not from an office (just the precise time if I had to) so I could visit any country I feel like, any part of this world I want to see, I have to see it, I'd love to do that and if they pay me for it, even better! Imagine having a job where they pay you to travel (and if it's not too much to ask, also food) my dream, that's my biggest dream. Travel through Chile and the world.

Why Art?

 Something interesting about me, being and art student, is that i'm not into art. I mean, in school I chose art instead of music, but that's because I was so afraid of music, I tought I had no talent for so it wouldn't worth it, also I've always drew well so it seemed like the only choice was that. Besides I barely visit art museums, I find them boring and I don't even know If I enjoy art, but here I am, determined to have my visual arts bachelor's degree.

Since I'm not an innate artistic person, I don't think I'm good enough for this, all my classmates have been artistic all their lives, at least most of them, I don't know their stories either, I'm just babbling right now. But that's why, guessing, I'm always jealous of other's work, 'cause I'm not THAT artistic.

I'm simple and ignorant about art (yes, I know I must know more of this topic since I'm studying it), so I don't know what kind of art I like the most, but I'm kind of trapped, caught by baroque and impressionism, I don't search it in google either visited museums that had it, only the ones that teachers present in class, guess I'm more into those epoch than art itself (I've always liked history, from Chile, Europe, Asia, first civilizations, etc) I didn't grew up in an artistic family either but graffitis from my town are in a great quantity and some are huge, same as murals. I find them interesting with an unusual beautiness, I always try to figure out what it represents or says, sometimes it's pretty difficult. 

I don't know if I said this in my other post, but I'm not the kind of 'favourite things' person, so I don't really have an artist or art work one. Sorry about that. Instead of that, I can give you what kind of art do I search for. I'm a textil artist (at least I'm trying to) so I have to look into textil art, sculptures, installations, site-specific, maybe drawings, maybe fashion designers and fashion weeks. I put some pictures I like. So, why art? Who knows! something dragged me here and here I am yet I like it, this career, studying this, not in the online way, personally hate it, but what can I do. 

A little me, a little of me

I remember we (me and my mom) used to listen to Shakira, Silvio Rodríguez, Miranda!, Los enanitos Verdes, La oreja de Van Gogh, Julieta Venegas, Celine Dion, Withney Houston and the list can continue  and continue with no end, any song of them, sometimes, reminds me of my childhood (I mentioned I don't remember that much). It reminds me more kind of a feeling that memories itself, it's a lot of nostalgic, sadness for the (g)old times, I particularly enjoyed sang to Shakira and Julieta Venegas songs, two women I've been admiring till today.

Since I can't force my mind to go to my earliest memory, (I admire if someone can do that) I'll tell you a history my mom have been telling everyone she knows, something that makes me laugh all times. When I was around 4, my brother told me to take a cup and grab it by the ear, while he would fill it with juice, the thing is, I was holding my own ear instead of the one in the cup! hahahaha I was just 4, he was expecting big things from a tiny human girl hahaha 

I can't remember how and when I learned to ride a bike or swim, but I learnt. I used to hate school and don't have terrific memories about it. So considering that would be boring, I'll talk about my favourite tv shows when I was a little thing. 

Let's start with 'Sakura card captor', I loved Sakura, I loved her and her best friend, they did a terrific couple, fighting evil cards, with fashion and style, without losing their childhood, collecting mysterious being whom escaped from cards of an old and enigmatic magician, god I loved it! I used to watch a lot of anime, Doraemon (Nobita was so dumb and Doraemon was always saving his back), Dragon Ball (I watched all episodes till GT), Inuyasha (How cute was Kirara, I wanted a cat like it), Sailor Moon, Meow Meow Power (I REALLY love cats), Detective Conan (I was madly in love with Shinichi/Bobby), Knights of the Zodiac and a lot of cartoons too, like Winx Club, Foster's Home for Imaginary Friends (a lot of laughter with this one), Looney Tunes (my favourite was Bugs Bunny, I still have a teddy of it), Billy and Mandy (one of my favourites, I'm a totally resemblance of Mandy's attitude in real life, plus she was my favourite character), Teen Titans, Sponge Bob (A classic), Powerpuff Girls (Again, I'm like the 'grumpy one' and most liked, guess who?), The Fairly Oddparents, I could go all night long with it. 

What a memories I have of this! I always saw it alone but I loved it till the roots, nobody bothering me, chilling by myself, eating what I wanted, laughing and screaming and all sort of things kids do when they watch tv. Good memories, nothing to complain. I can't deny It was a little sad being on my own since little, with no close friends to talk about it, but I can't change my past, so why make it a nuisance or something to regret, it's preferable relive it with happy nostalgia instead of surrowful nostalgia (? I guess.

RBD, my first concert

My first concert ever was in Movistar Arena, with RBD, a mexican band which was initially part of a television show. I used to see every episode sacredly. I went with my mon, because a I was just 10 years old, I couldn't have gone by my own. They were 6 members, 3 women and 3 men in the band, their artistic names were (from left to right): Diego, Mía, Roberta, Miguel, Lupita and Giovanni. My favorite character was Roberta because she was a woman with a strong character, she always said her thoughts and ideas out loud and was passionate everything she did, in the TV show of course.

Back to the topic, the concert was in 14th December, 2008. 12 years ago (how time flies! can't believe it), we had to wait for around 2 hours for them to appear! When they finally arrived at the stage I started to scream and tell my mom who knows what! hahaha I was crying all the time, I barely remember anything because I don't have a good memory (it happens with a lot of moments in my childhood) but for sure I enjoyed it, my mom was with me every second, she held me and supported me with my screaming and everything, hahaha, It was pretty crazy, that's mainly what I remember. When the show ended me and my mon took a cab to our house, and guess what: I fell right asleep, all night long (or maybe not, I can't remember).